I am keeping up this kind of journal into my thoughts. I don’t really know who it’s for, but it does give me comfort. Like all things these days, it is a part of my process and my wellness. So here I am on a Thursday night. I feel pretty good, not depressed in any real sense.
I am both blessed and cursed by my introspection. More blessed because in recognizing my own pain, I can also recognize the pain in others. I think many things are like that: you make what you will out of them. I can say I am more blessed than others because I know how my life could have turned out.
Now, I need to see what lies ahead. There are many things: school, dating, fun, wellness, and probably many other ideas I can’t yet contemplate. I am grateful for what lies ahead, however. I will do my best to take each day with compassion, but not pity; love but not blindness; patience but not lowliness; and above all else, the ability to stay calm and focused on my priorities and peace of mind.